I don’t think this is a good a idea.

I know that I am essentially responsible for myself but yoooo, this is hard. I cannot do it.

Do I really need to do this. Do I Really?


Somebody help me.

Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay

This is the battle in my mind every single morning when my alarm goes off. A reminder that the sweet dream land is over and time to make those dreams a reality is upon me. I just wanna cry now. And remembering that it’s workout time. Oh no! It is a real struggle. From trying to look for excuses as to why it isn’t a good idea to exercise this particular morning to reminding myself that I am doing this for myself and ultimately, whatever, choice I make, I’ll have to deal with the outcome. Free will, my dear, it’s free will.

It’s -1 degrees outside. I cannot go for a run.

Well, there are dance workouts on YouTube non?

Sniff. Sniff. Okay

I must say trying to stay consistent with exercising has been really challenging. I have been going on and off for years now. My discipline is nothing near that of the military and I can definitely see the results as well. No discipline, disappointing results.

I have been on a journey to work on myself wholesomely and that includes working on my discipline. My major problem area is getting to make myself do the things that I do not want to do but are absolutely essential for example, exercising which is absolutely great for us; especially for someone like me who is in confinement and works online hence sitting for long hours. I had to come to a consensus with myself and stop making excuses and start doing.

In order to motivate myself, I looked at the different things that I liked doing and how I could incorporate that into workouts. That is how I came to discover dance workouts and got myself into the habit of regular exercise. One of my favorite dance workouts have to be the ones on Pop Sugar and FitSevenEleven. They are fun and push me to my limits and at the end of the 30 minute session, I am dripping in sweat and totally loving it because it reminds me that I woke up and did something good for me. I am especially inclined to Keaira Lashae’s workouts because she really encourages the hell out of you even when your body is saying ‘to hell with this’. My favorite of her motivations is ‘With Challenge Comes Change’ and repeating this over and over when I am out of breathe reminds me why I am doing this, para mi.

Inhale your goals and exhale your excuses ~ Keaira lashae

Recently, I have graduated to running in my neighbourhood. It had been years ever since I hit the track and I had forgotten that I actually loved it. The icing on the cake is the fact that I can watch the sunrise while sprinting along a bridge overlooking The Seine river while watching young people kayaking. As my body starts to feel the effects of the sprint, I slow down into a jog while a boat emerges disturbing the perfectly calm layered waves which find themselves running for dear lives and hitting the bank and its impact reverberating to the center of the river creating an illusion of chaos before they slow down and shimmer in the first rays of the day. What a sight!

While I am still trying to find a way of creating a healthy exercise habit, I am enjoying every step of this journey including the next day pain while I look for ways to constantly push myself. Growth. It’s what I am after because staying in the same place hoping for things to change is just useless. Doing things is what creates change and even though it is not easy, when I am thinking of giving up, I remember with challenge comes change!



Some of my favorite dance workouts:
25 Minute Hip-Hop Tabata Workout
30 Minute Hip-Hop Tabata Torch Calories
30 Min Dance Workout

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